Have you ever had a boss, that is so moody & cranky you hate going to work every freaking day!!!!!!!!
even if you like your job,… going to work is such a big burden!!!!!!…..
AKO/KAMI—SYA
January 21, 2008 at 11:34 am (laughing trip, senseless writing, work related)
it’s been a while since my last post well i’ve been really busy with work! and my shifts is kinda crazy, it starts from 10pm up to 9 am so i will arrive at home around 10:30 – 11 am leaves me with no choice but to sleep and then go to work again! im such a loser hehe..anyways this entry is not about my work but somehow related to my work.
you see i have a problem (korek ka dyan yan yung pinoproblema ko sa pex!hehe) and my problem is…..im inlove!!! my gulay!and since when love became a problem? since the start of the year hehe…start pa lang ng year my problema na ako 
to start here’s the story….this is suppose to be a secret but i cant seem to handle it anymore so i-share ko na baka masabi ko pa sa kanya kakahiya hahaha..
prob #1 trainer ko sya (used to be kasi tapos na product training ko eh! haha) nung una ko syang nakita well so-so di sya ganun ka-gwapo infact di nga sya cute eh but days passed by grabeh ngiti pa lang nya natutunaw na ako!
Prob#2 di nya ako pansin para lang akong pader na dinadaanan nya ni hindi man lang ako nililingon and ewan di naman masakit pero malungkot na di ka nya nakikita the way you do with him..
Prob#3 dahil para lang akong pader ibig sabihin ako lang ang nakakaramdam ng ganito sa kanya at ang hirap kasi umaasa ako na isang araw makikita nya rin ako at mapapansing nasa harap nya lang ako at hinihintay sya!
at first di ko binigyan ng pansin ang nararamdaman ko thinking na this too shall pass and siguro naaaliw lang ako sa kanya coz he’s witty and smart and a bit funny pero nung walang pasabi na hindi na sya ang magiging trainer namin i was so sad and blue well alam ko one day mag-hihiwalay kami ng landas (bf ko?!? ) pero not that soon kasi ang nangyari na-assign sya sa ibang class at napalitan kami ng trainer then i realize na i like him soooo muchhhhh sobwa! but then i still have to run away from the feeling kasi ewan im so afraid with this feeling maybe because alam ko na walang mangyayari and i would end up hurting myself and losing all the pieces of me again! then one day i was infront of HR waiting for my friends bigla syang nag appear (eh sobrang miss ko na sya morning shift kasi sya ) lumapit sya sa AMIN di sa AKIN nakipag kwentuhan lng sya and sinabi nya yung reason kung for the sudden change ng trainers believe it or not para akong highschool na nakita ang crush nya sobrang kinakabahan ako ang bilis bilis ng tibok ng puso ko, to the point na di ako makahinga at promise di ko naintindihan yung sinasabi nya kasi ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko na nabibingi na ako! at the whole time na nagsasalita sya pinagmamasdan ko lang sya!i have to ask again my friend para ma-gets yung sinabi nya haha!
then last saturday nag aya syang lumabas i was so confused kung sasama ba ako o hindi before pa kasi sya nag aya pinapangarap ko na isang araw he will ask me to go out with him hava a coffee (though di ako umiinom ng kape ) so yun na nga nag aya na sya sa AMIN di ulit sa AKIN hehe sumama parin ako kasi moments parin yun kahit di exclusive sa AKIN hahaha pero di ko sinamantala yung pagka-kataon ayokong bigyan sya ng hint or whatever sa nadarama ko for the very reason na natatakot talaga ako sa nararamdaman ko so kumain kami sa G4 malyo ako sa kanya kung saan di nya nakikitang tinititigan ko sya haha lahat kinakausap sya pwera ako di ko kasi talaga alam ang gagawin ko eh di ko alam ang sasabihin ko kapag nandyan na sya i feel so helpless and weak pakiramdam ko bukas na bukas yung pagka-tao at puso ko kapag nandyan sya kaya pakiramdam ko any moment pwede nya akong masaktan maling galaw nya lang, do you understand? the feeling is just too much!!! so yun na ni hindi nga ako naka-kain kasi nga nandun sya i have to stand up once in a while and walk away from him…..so natapos ang kainan uwian na! feeling bad kasi nga di ko man lang narinig yung boses nya na ako ang kausp hehe so habang naglalakad i made my move….tinanung ko sya here it goes “hey, di ba ikaw yung nagse-set up ng sched namin?!” “ahm…hindi RC ang sine-set up ko lang yung para sa new hires!” with that look! haha alam ko naman ang sagot sa tanung ko pero wala lang gusto ko sanang itanung gusto mo ba ako?!?
before pala dumating ang sabado ni-text ko sya kasi lahat ng trainer binibigay nila yung mga mobile # nila for absences purpose…. so for a week isang maliking pagtatalo sa sarili ko kung ite-text ko ba sya o hindi at alam mo kung anu ite-text ko isang qoutation for almost 4years na pagkakaroon ng CP ni minsan di ko naisip na mahihirapan ako magpasa ng isang qoutation sa isang tao! grabeh! pero nag pasa parin ako at kahit sa text kinakabahan parin ako! tinanung nya ako xempre ang walang kupas na “who’s this?” then sinabi ko nga na ako yun then he said ah sorry! bakit di ka pa natutulog? (weee sarahp parang concern ) then sabi ko di pa ako inaantok, ang weird nagta-tagalog ka! (feeling talaga ako 
) then sabi nya hahaha i bet you guys wants me to hear speak in filipino at ang sagot ko korek ka dyan! then sabi ba naman nya you should get some sleep (and i really dont know kung caring sya o ayaw na nya akong ka-text ) so what i did is said my goodnights! wala lang hahaha so after nung pagkikita nung sabado nag text ulit ako nag thanx ako kasi pinasakay nya KAMI di ulit AKO sa car nya then sabi nya no problem…. gusto ko pa sanang mag text kaya lang baka makahalata sya praning ako eh! hahaha……so paano at bakit ako nagka gusto sa kanya…..
di ko rin alam basta ang alam ko gusto ko ang amoy ng pabango nya na pakirmdam ko kahit wala sya dun naamoy ko parin sya, gusto ko ang mga mata nya mapungay lalo na pag inaalis nya yung salamin nya, gusto ko ang mga ngiti nya na tumutunaw sa puso ko (woooo!!!) gusto ko rin pag tumatawa sya pakiramdam ko di sya marunong umiyak, gusto ko ang boses nya parang paos na di masyadow, sa tuwing inaayos nya ang buhok nya, humihina ang depensa, at gustong gusto ko ang reaction ng mukha nya sa lahat ng sinsabi KO/NAMIN sa kanya!….kung gaano ko sya ka-gusto?…
sapat na bang sabihin na kahit nahihirapan ako kapag nakikita sya gusto ko parin syang makita, ayokong lumilipas ang araw na hindi sya nakikita kungdi magkakasakit ako! kailangan bago mag start ang shift ko at mag take ng calls makita ko muna sya or during calls dapat makita ko sya kaya most of the time di ako umuupo sa working station ko nakatayo talaga ako! kahit nangangawit ako masilip ko lang kung nandyan ba sya o wala kasi madalas pa-lakad lakad sya at madalas syang dumaan sa working stations namin once nga naghahanap ako ng support kasi may ive-verify ako pag-tayo sabay pag lingon ko nagulat ako napupo nga ulit ako eh kasi yun kinabahan nanaman ako then tinanung nya ako what? yun sa kanya ko na lang tinanung hahahaha….
ang hirap talaga ng ganito yes i’ve been inlove before but believe it or believe it di pa ako nakaramdamng ganito….im really weak, helpless, at times i cant hardly breath, when he speaks the world goes still, for a moment there’s no else alive, at times i cant move, there are times i swear i feel like i could fly for a moment in time somewhere in between the heaven and earth and i cant contain the emotions deep within, at bawat kanta na naririnig ko sya ang naiisip as in love song, rock pop lahat!and ayoko ng ganitong feeling kasi nga walang mangyayari masasayang lang ang pagmamahal na meron ako para sa kanya! bakit ba kasi kapag nakita mo na yung taong nagpapalipad sayo at nagpapatibok ng puso mo saka naman di sya ang para sayo, bakit ganun kapag handa ka na ulit saka naman hindi handa sayo ang panahon! di ba pwedeng kapag gusto mo gusto ka rin?!? bakit kailangan maging problema kung pwede namang maging solusyon….kung pwede lang lumayo sa nararamdaman ko ginawa ko na! alam ko ang pag ibig is a state of mind at kung gusto mo magagawa mo dahil sa utak mo nag mumula! pero its easier said than done!….
so there you go….. di ba para akong bata mas may mahirap pa na problema dito alam ko pero eto na lang kasi nasa isip ko lage napapalitan nya na nga si sarah eh which is not good, mortal sin yun!! pero napag isipan ko na ito eh since ayaw nyang tantanan ang puso ko at ayaw nyang umalis sa isip ko hahayaan ko na lang sya dun kumbaga sa kanta ” kaya’t ikaw ay mananatili na lang sa damdamin at aking isipan iguguhit kita sa ala-ala pagka’t tayo ay hanggang panaginip lamang!” but there are dreams that cannot be! wooo ang haba na nito too much for this….. sana this week maging maganda para sa akin sa carrer at love life
tis the season to be jolly
December 31, 2007 at 7:48 am (laughing trip, sarah matters, senseless writing, work related)
Tags: sarah life me love friends
woooo! lapit na matapos ang taon! as of this writing 9hrs to go maghihiwalay na ang taon, i wonder kung anu na ang subtitle ng asap, could it be asap 08? hehe o 2k8? whatever basta nandun si sarah! anyways. it has been a great year for me, atleast…..hehe well i had my good, bad and best times this year….i’ll start with the bad hahaha kasi nag umpisa naman talaga ang taon ko na walang sense eh
BAD TIMES
i started the year being a bum plus the fact that i am broke! so, akala ko talaga wala nang sense ang lahat….plus di ako nakabalik sa school eh gusto ko na sana…..this year din nawalan kami ng ilaw as in total darkness late october naputulan kami until now wala pa kaming kuryente (yuck! poverty people ) pero nagawan ng paraan nagnakaw kami sa meralco wahahahaha (ang poverty talaga namin so please bear with us! ) pero di na ngayon mga 1 month kaming nag-tap ng kuryente itinigil namin kasi muntik nang magka sunog sa amin wehehehe…. as in sa loob talaga ng bahay namin pumutok yung kuryente! it was terrible! i was so nervous that i dont have the strenght to get out of our house! nasa taas lang ako, at di alam ang gagawin as in brain not functioning!….but wait theres more not once but twice nangyari ito this time nasa office ako nung nag spark ulit yung wire this time wala na talaga kaming kuryente di na kami naka tap it’s just that umulan that day and tuklap na yung mga wire kaya nangyari yun and same reason mahirap kami di namin mapalitan ang wire na nasunog! you see i started the year broke and i will end it broke, how pathetic!……this year din nawalan ako ng work well di naman talaga sya work petiks nga lang ako but still na-terminate parin ako hahaha…..yung EP ni sarah bad trip talaga ako sa kanya di ko sya makakalimutan kahit kelan hahahaha…..di ako naka attend ng christmas party with sarah haizt masakit parin sa damdamin gang ngayon …..anu pa bang bad times ko? hmm…….wala na akong maalala hahaha memory loss sa sobrang bad nila di ko na maalala so we should move on next stop good times…
GOOD TIMES
ahahahaha wala rin akong maisip! …….. ah ok eto i got a job, as the certified petiks sa office ng tita ko hahaha…. parang OJT ako sa kanya may allowance ako na sapat lang isa pa petiks lang naman ako eh the good thing is….. haha…… yun tambay ako sa pex at sg.com as in tambay mostly natatapos ang araw ko na nakatapat ako sa PC maghapon as in max of 12hrs infront of the computer! ang saya di ba! ang dami kong nakilala at supah updated ako! hahaha…. sa sobrang tagal ko sa PC tinanggal ako ng tita ko …….. ahm good thing din na di natuloy ang posibleng sunog sa amin (as mentioned in the 1st paragraph! ) kaya masaya parin kahit poverty people kami and by the way nakabili na si mama ng wire for the whopping price of……. sekreto para bibo 
pero wala parin kaming kuryente ang laki kasi ng bayarin di ko pa kayang bayaran hahaha maybe next month pero di one time big time! haha…… nakikikabit kami ulit sa kapitbahay pero di tap ang wire at lalong di nakaw! with their consent may nakakabit na extension sa kanila na nagko konek samen gets?hehehe hirap mag explain…..anu pa bang good aha! di ba natanggal ako sa previous work ko…wala lang nakahanap din naman ako ng bago though it was so hard to look for another job eh nakahanap naman ako nosebleed nga lang hahaha and FYI kung dati nosebleed lang ngayon kasama na pati utak ko dumudugo na! hahaha product training na kasi ako!………..ok enough of that the best things happens in the most unexpected places…..
BEST TIMES
hahahaha sa sobrang dami di ko maumpisahan!….. (echos!) this year mas nadama kong naging mas active ako in terms of being a fan kasi ikaw na tumambay sa harap ng computer for 12hrs kung wala kang makilalang mga adik sino tinutukoy ko? ikaw ate! ikaw boss! and the rest of the gang wahaahaahaha…… naalala ko nung may 1st GEB yun lost in space ako hahahaha di ko sila nakita! di kasi nag dala ng banner ewan….hahahahaha pero alam nyo wala lang i had a great year with you guys sobwa!!…. yung mga adik na yan kahit adik tried and tested ang friendship nila! as in nung mga panahon na tag ulan as in nag aalok sila ng payong! woooo umbrella ela ela ei ei ei…. seryoso i was touch to those who texted me showing their emphaty it really means a lot! kaya salamat! kayo ang nais kong pasalamatan kayo kayo kayo la la la la i love you guys!…… ……… this year nakanuod ako ng concert ni sarah at ang saya saya hahahaha kasama ko mga adik kaya mas masaya (woo plastic hahahaha ) at this year naki tour ako kay sarah as in from southmall to sta rosa, fairview to bacoor, north edsa to abs-cbn hahaha (nakalimutan ko yung ibang malls!)…… naka attend ulit ako ng bday nya! wala lang mas masaya ngayon ang bday nya unlike last year! anu pa ba! ….. hmmm ASHLO moments grabeh sana marami pa next year…… what about faith slowly gaining ground….. thanx ulit sayo ate a little enlightment helps!…….. all in all i can say that this year was still great kahit na i may sometime feel that i am the worst person, experiencing the worst day ever in this worst world (tama ba ) …… sana maging mas maganda next year sana i can keep the best and good times at yung mga bad as much as possible di na mangyari ulit i know hardships and problems will always be there but sana somehow kayanin ko! kakayanin ko! with the help of my family ang friends and of course the one above!
how hard can it be?!?
December 1, 2007 at 6:48 am (senseless writing, work related)
Tags: work life me you
my training has already started last monday nov 26th! meaning i finished my 1st week, well….. it’s ok! hahaha nah it was a disaster!
i was hired as a customer service representative-inbound at ePLDT ventus in jupiter parlance buendia! (complete address!! ) im on training, for 3 mos. 4 weeks english training, 3 weeks product training, 3 weeks edge training, 3 weeks transit training! and what the hell are those?!? i dont know! kidding! i’ll try to explain.
1st 4 weeks will be my english training, i just finished my 1st week so i will have 3 weeks more nosebleed and brain damaging lessons! but you know what? im enjoying it! coz there’s a lot of words that i really didn’t know how to prounouced, now, well its kinda weird if you hear me talk right now in english i sound weird and maarte but theres nothing i can do coz that’s how they are pronounced!next week we’ll have our grammar lessons and i bet it will be loads and loads of infos again but then again it’s ok! so when i put an entry here again it will be better!hehe…..
product training! well by the name itself! we will be trained to know the product we will be working on soon! our accnt is a sattelite network! i’ll tell you more about it when i get there hahaha ( i hope so! if i pass my english training!)
edge training this is the part where you will study how to answer a call!!! yeah at this age i still have to learn how to answer a phone hahaha!!!! just like product i will explain more by the time i get there… if i will get there!
transit! haha this is the hands on part! i will be send in the floor to answer the actual call from the actual customer!
every training has a certain average grade that i need to meet or else im terminated!hahaha in english 80%, product 75%, edge 80% and transit is 90%…… how hard can it be?!? my trainer would usually say! but for me its as hard as not seeing sars for a week!i miss her… i didn’t get to watch this weeks epi coz my shift starts from 2pm – 10pm i hate it! but luckily next week my shift will start from 6am – 2pm! yeah i know it’s too early but it’s ok! coz i can watch the last 5 epi of PNB!!!…..going back every friday of each week i will have my written, reading and the hardest part of all impromptu exam! last week i got an average of 84% its very low compared to my batchmate but im not the lowest!haha but its too low for me its fraustrating coz i worked hard on it! its hard to speak in english specially if your not used to it! but i guess i didn’t try hard enough! i’ll just try more harder so i can be better next week…one step at a time!
so how’s my fisrt week? again it’s a disaster! coz i dont have friends! i dont even have someone to be with while eating! if it’s ok not to eat dinner i will not eat but it’s not ok! coz you can’t help it! haha….. on the other hand it’s ok to be alone sometimes! haha you know why…so i wont talk and talk! as i have told you it’s hard to express yourself specially when your not used to the language! my nose, eyes, ears and brain bleeds to death!hahaha……and i expect my next week will be a chaos but fun!!!
