THE NEXT ONE Nobyembre 11, 2008

Sarah, getting ready to hit the notes for forever is not enough

I wanted to write something about my work at kung paano sa loob ng isang taon nadadama ko parin na di sya para sa akin,.. ]pero nakakapagod na nga na mismong nangyayari sa akin yung pag usapan pa?!? so yung concert na lang ni sarah hahaha….

P2,625.00 yung halaga ng ticket ko,.. malapit na nga ako sa stage! asenso hahaha,.. dun sa gilid kung saan madalas nakatingin si sarah,.. kasi nandun ang kanyang “infamous popsters!” yihee! naisip ko nga kaya lagi sya nakatingin dun kinakabahan sya at kailangan nya ng lakas ng loob hahaha…anyways umpisahan na natin ang review ko i will try no be not so bias!

P1,500 para sa opening! she sang Forever is not enough,.. well yeah i know lagi naman eh pero this time is different una akala ko lilipad na si sarah papuntang stage di na sya lilitaw mula sa ilalim ng stage! hahaha yun pala sa backstage sya lalabas maglalakad mag bo-bow at sabay upo sa tapat ng piano & the crowd!!! parang serena ng bumbero!!! ang lakas!! hahaha……ayon sa book delight means exceeding your expectation at yun delightful ako sa performance ni sarah! husay eh!!! alam mo yun 1000x ko nang nadinig ang FNE sa iba’t ibang paraan sa iba’t ibang pagkakataon pero dito ko lang na-realize na,… trully enough FOREVER IS NOT ENOUGH to describe how sarah rocks my world sa mga oras na yun!!!sinundan nya ng how could you say you love though sana talaga di na nya kinanta ulit ang mga kantang ito lagi na lang kasi sa mga concert nya kasama ito eh pero na-realize ko di mo makikilala ang sarah geronimo kung di mo alam ang kanta na ito!!! back to the basic! hahaha.

P150 sa dance # with the UD4 i was expecting a super prod # with rayver ang lufet ng ”no air” nila sa asap eh kaya expecting talaga ako tapos wala naman pala! ok lang parang wala lang talaga hahaha…. when i grow up is really a song meant for her!hahaha parang sinulat ang song na yun para sa kanya though recycle sya katulad ng that’s not my name i find it more angas in araneta with all the people listening & watching!

P50 para sa HURT harhar di ko kasi alam yung song  & para sa akin typical prod # sya sa asap or guest sa isang event basta! at sa mga nakaka-alam anu ba ang typical prod # ni sarah! most of the time nakikita mo na lang ang sarili mo nakatulala at masasabing yun na yun! sarah lufet! hahaha….hati sila ng ikaw so tag P25 at middle of the song kasi parang nauna o nahuli si sarah o si sir louie tsaka parang Mall tour lang sya sarahp isagaw na we love you sarah!!! hahaha…….

P200 ikaw ang pangarap,.. pag si jed ang ka-duet mo,.. malamang sa hindi iniisip mo kailangan kong galingan it’s jed! hahaha,.. i mean parang macha-challenge ka coz thi guy really have big voice box inside him! hahaha…. i like the though na may effort sa blending though may some points na parang nangangapa sila sa isa’t isa! (inset: AshLo yihee! )

P100 sarah billy,.. hay naku isang malaking recycle din ewan ko ba theme yata ng concert ang recycle!!! hahaha mas maganda pa yung 4 minutes sa asap libre pa! hahaha…. though you know si sarah gumagaling na sa pag sayaw & mas makikita mo na ngayon yung edge nya among the others so please dont stop the music!!! so worth na rin yung P100 int’l singer naman si billy eh hahaha…..

P75 for the baler themesong hahaha,… its like super lumang song maybe because of the movie itself luma kasi yung theme & very touching yung song kaya lang yun yung tipo ng song na kailangan mong marinig ng paulit ulit para matanggap ng tenga mo hahhaa….hati din sila ng cebuana dito ko naramdaman na pagod na si sarah,.. bitin yung birit nya eh! mas maganda yung sa asap buong buo talaga yung boses nya dun!

P75 din sa where only angels fly hahaha P25 goes sa mga dancers hahaha galing nila!!husay sa stretching & everything,….kay sarah naman not one of the highlights but i like the song so give it a P50 hehe,… & feeling ko mas solemn ang pagkaka-kanta nya or ako lang yun hahaha….

P75 para sa played at i’ll be there ang ganda ng remix ng played parang pang disco!!! hahaha…. & i like hopw they choreographed the song gusto ko ng malufet na music video hahaha,… i’ll be there is more baduy but cute in a way si sarah kasi papansin hahaha…..

P50 for the avsl part sabi ko na titigan ni jlc si sarah at maghihiyawan ang mga tao! at si sarah keep on saying na nakaka-kanta na sya di naman mapakali sa stage naka isa tuloy si jlc hahaha….. P15 for jlc’s effort to sing hahaha,… though si sarah di parin sanay sa loveteam ek ek (feeling ko lang ha) di pa sya ganun kabihasa sa pagpapakilig yihee!!!! hahaha…. pero ok na rin muntik na akong madala!!! hahaha (bato!) hahahaha…..

P200 for alone!!! ang lufet nya talaga dito one of the best part as in ang astig nung pag talikod nya sabay birit napatayo nga ako eh! hahaha…. at napasigaw na sarahhhhhh!!!!!!!!! hahahaha….. for me walang sinabi si celine (wag kang epal review ko ito eh! ) hahahaha…… i knew naman na she will sing this eh! just didn’t thought it would be so great na ayoko nang maging alone! hahaha “i never really cared umtil i met you!!!”

P100 for i believe i can fly it moved me in a way na nakakatakot din hahaha feeling ko kasi ito yung pinaka pupunahin sa lahat ng perfomance nya (as of this writing wala pa akong nababasang reviews!) at habang kinakanta nya ito with the chorale! parang black performer si sarah! wala lang i like how she moves & sings & groove during the song!! lufet!!! parang kulang sa P100 yung bayad ko may utang pa ako ahhaha….

P15 para sa last song ito ang super recycle talaga as in!!! parang yung 2 weeks na rehearsal di na kayang mag isip pa o mag rehearse pa kaya yun na lang sa iyo na lang husay!!!!!….

may P10 pang natitira para yan kay luis, kc, anne, mark, beth na super supportive kay sarah tag P2 sila hahahaha…. sorry wala nang natira para sa iba may utang pa nga ako sa i believe i can fly eh

(inset: ang konti ng damit nya ngayon puro shiny shimmering pa tapos yung pang opening nya para syang yung matador hahaha yung nagwawagayway ng pulang bandila sa toro! at parang mexican insipred ang mga suot nya di nya pinakita ang legs nya,… at feeling ko ang bilis ng show ewan ko ba! hahaha,. pero ang daming tao mas puno sya unlike sgim!! pero mas maganda ang sgim! harhar!!! pero sulit naman ang P2,625 ko may utang pa nga ako di ba! hahaha……sa uulitin sarah kahit pa di maganda ang pag tatapos! alam mo na yun hahahaha)

Just Me Setyembre 20, 2008

Last sept 12 sarah launch her 5th studio album Just Me. And of course i bought my self a copy

01. I’ll be there -  featuring howie d. of backstreet boys (social) hehe,.. the music is nice! great way to start the album, and made it as the carrier single. The bsb style was there,.. nice vocal arrangement and would you believe they did not record it together! but it turns out nice!… love the bridge part and the line “i’ll be in your smile”

02. You’re the love of my life – i love this song,.. sarah sang it with all the emotions hehe,.. it makes me feel it’s nice to have someone! like the part “you’re destined to be mine” & “i breathe with your heart & your soul”,.. love the last part “you’re the love,… the love of my life” the back up vocals made it so serene! easy listening.

03. Dahil minahal mo ako – one of the two tagalog songs,.. the first part is a bit boring i dunno, but the when you reach the chorus you would appreciate the song,.. everytime i hear this i remember the message of sarah to her fans how she love her fans & thankful for all the support,.. so heartwarming that all you can say is “dahil minahal mo ako, lahat ay gagawin para sayo”

04. Where only angels fly – inspirational track for me,.. not to follow your dreams or whatever! inspirational in a a romantic way! hehe… from the way i understand it,.. the song is for those who have lost their faith in love,.. maybe afraid to try again or just dont want to feel it in anyways! hehe… it inspires you to try it,.. inspires you that inspite of it all theres a place “where only angels fly”

05. Silence – a fast song! let’s party! hehe… a different sarah,.. whenever viva makes albums that are internationally produced,… they produced artist that deserves international fame! hehe… i like the part before it hits the chorus for example the part “im not gonna stand around & fight got better thing to do tonight” ,… and “my love isn’t up for your debate” hahaha (in short “dont be paki-alamera!) hahaha,.. the song is also unique a bit personalized she has her name on the lyrics “trust your sarah!”

06. One little kiss – Fisrt love, first kiss,.. yihee! whenever i hear this i imagine the prom nights, the highschool life though i did not attend the prom night coz there’s no one to share that “one little kiss,… three little words from your lips” hehehe…. i feel that its time to change the immortal “king & queen of hearts” in prom nights!

07. I belong to you – oh my gulay! one of my favourite! as in! hehe,… this song is a bit sexy for her,.. i imagined a daring music video with no one else but piolo pascual! seriously, everytime i hear this piolo and sarah comes to my mind! doing the thing! (malisyosa! ) doing the music video a different sarah,… with the charm of piolo “there’s no better place than right here in your sweet embrace” “with you i feel complete”.

08. Just Me – a more personalized song! the song fits for her… introducing herself. it would be nice if she will use this as one of her opening song in her upcoming concert,… i like the jazzy thingy in the song though this song fit as one of the filler in the song! its like an adlib to the album,.. “popstar on the cover or the girl next door” and i like the robot thingy at the end part haha…

09. Look inside ourselves – This is the most beautiful song for me in the album! ultimate favourite! a pop rock song in the likes of avril L. & kelly clarkson,.. the song is a bit sad,.. you will  feel the pain and hate in the song,.. the sound of the piano & guitar,, made it more depressing hahaha and sarah’s vocal range is as powerful as before you will feel the old sarah belting it out and “buo yung boses” piano guitar & sarah what a great way to experience pain hahaha….. “nobody said it was an easy life,.. its gonna be a crazy ride”

10. Kahit mahal mo ay iba – “kahit na-remix” one of my colleague said easy listening song,.. fit also to be a filler though the song is good,.. i like the rythm and the lyrics! “ligaya mo ay ligaya ko”

11. Played – the “angas song” hehe from the title itself she was played deceive fooled & everthing in between haha…. i like the beat of the drum or whatever that is that makes it more “angas!” i also like the vocal range in this song when i heard her sing it live i loved her more!…”i dont want to say it,.. but you probably gonna say it”

12. Sweet memories – when i first heard i thought it sound like a japanesse old song,.. then yesterday i had a chance to really look at the inlay, lyrics & the writers of the songs,.. then the one who wrote this song i think is either a japanesse or chinesse base on the name,… i like the part “guess i was too young too young to know love” sarah is that you?!?… i like the sound of the guitar,.. (am i right ) hahaha… it made the song sound old i imagine her singing it using the old microphones in a hotel bar with the old dress….

13. Im falling – “innuendos” what the F is that the use of such allusions! did you even get it? hahaha i coz i did not!…. i like the vocal range in this song it shows sarah’s trademark “the birit” the song is a bit slow to show that you are falling but its to conscise to undertand that you are falling and to see that “when it comes to you nothing i would do” one comment though the word “THE” you pronounce it as “da” followed by a word that starts with a consonant letter & “dee” with a vowel i think sarah did not follow the rule in the line “the connection is strong” wala lang hehe…

14. What have you done with my heart – a song for those who are inlove! even to those who are not like me! this is the type of song that grows in you,.. i mean the more you listen to it the more you will love it and “im so inlove” with it that “i go dizzy” hehe….

15. Remind me to forget you – 2nd of my ultimate favourite! the song is sad but i like the idea that they did not made it as depressing as being broken hearted hehe… i like the meaning behind the song,.. that everytime you see that person it always “remind me to forget you” when you should have done it yourself! i like the rythm and the voice of sorry as if she has someone to remind these things from time to time.

16. Movie love – everytime i hear this i remember AshLLoyd hahaha… because of their movie a very special love “movie love & movie kiss” this song deserve a cool music video the likes of paris hilton’s  crazy music videos but not too skin on sarah’s part hehe… i only like this song when i hear it,.. hehe…

Now i understand why Just Me as i  mentioned the album is a bit personalized most of the songs shows who sarah is, what sarah is and the songs that inspires her! i like the album also the cover made her look like a chinesse manga character then when you look even more she looks like maja salvador hehe… i like the inlays blue and white,… refreshing for the eyes…

I’ll Be The One Setyembre 13, 2008

i bought mark bautista’s cd last week and may i say this is the best cd from him,….

1. Eternally – its a bit weird though it nice,.. i like the “diin” thingy in his voice,.. everytime i hear this i imagine someone walking against the wind,.. but i dont think its a good idea making this song as the carrier single not so catchy…

2. Sana’y dinggin mo – this one’s my favourite,… i would prefer this one as the carrier single,.. and mark’s voice is so nice in this song,… “kaka-inlove” hehe…..

3. Too Slow – a bit sexy, i dont this one sounds like they are inside a room waiting for someone to make a move,.. woot woot! hehe,.. but i like the rythm,.. its si slow hahaha…

4. Dont tell me about heartaches – with sarah G. hehe,.. the song was nice i was expecting a very very sad song or should i say melody but it was not so sad at all, though the lyrics a bit sad but when you hear it, a feel good song not so “birit” and i really like how their voice really blends,.. nobody does it better but FMS ehehe…

5. Stuck In My Heart Now – also my favourite,.. i read somewhere in the pex community that this song is dedicated to sarah from mark, yihee, i love the part “i want the very best for you” makes me think mark really cares about sarah, sincerely and honestly! naks!…

6. Take  A Chance – is a so-so song hehe… it is meant to be a filler in the album not saying its not nice, its just that its not the type of song that will make a mark in your mind (walang lss) hehe…

7. Everytime I Close My Eyes – this is so sweet, if your guy sing this to you, i dunno i would lost all the oxygen in the world because of “kilig” haha…..

8. Love & Affection – a fast song for mark,.. though it still sound a bit ballad but i appreciate the effort in making it sound RnB,.. i will give it 2 stars hehe…

9. Why Cant We – this is mark’s compisition,.. its a nice song i like the part “you dont know how weak i am inside” i also read that this song is also dedicated to sarah,.. i wonder if they really had something special between them base on the lyrics “we treat each other like we’re lovers then we promise to keep it to ourselves.. “

10. I’ll Be The One – inspirational to me, at first it sound like its not him, he took the start of the song with a different stroke….

11. Just Look At Me – everytime i hear this i want to put the lyrics to my siggy in sg.com hehe,… to make “patama” to all his detractors that thinks he is just using sarah for publicity “im not looking for fortune or fame im just waiting till you call my name”

12. I Dont Wanna Say Goodbye – the saddest song in the album,.. like the part “cant you see a heart doesn’t shine, without a bit of love it will die,..” very true!!! base on a true story

13. Somehow I Knew – somehow i knew this song is nice very serendipity type of song i like the medley not so upbeat but you can feel it.

All in  all this album is nice one FMS even describe it as “panliligaw CD” which is true!! haha… its like the album is made to woo someones heart!

*hanep mang-harana si mark isang buong album

a message from a student. Agosto 15, 2008

gosh i miss my blog site didn’t visit it for quite sometime now! perhaps im too busy or i  have nothing to write, well i actually i have a lot in my mind i just cant seem to find time and compose it, and put it here!… i cant even update my friendster! im too busy with things that seems not so important,. well i’ll go back later, i hope to read the blog of my old friend! and have the chance to say goodluck and stay happy she went to canada na eh (hallert teacher!), im sorry i didn’t have the chance to say it to you personally,.. but i do hope you understand like you always do! oo ikaw yan haha…. ingats ka dyan!..

matchbox 20 Marso 26, 2008

they call it “quarter-life crisis” it is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like.

you start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

you start realizing that people are selfish and that maybe those friends that you thought you were close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones what you dont recognize is that they are realizing that too and aren’t really cold, catty and mean or insecure but that they are not as confused as you.

you look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, if you look for a new job you will realize that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

your opinions have gotten stronger, you see what others are doing and find yourself judging than usual because suddenly you realize you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t,  one minute you are insecure and then the next secure.

you laugh and cry with the greatest force of you’re life, you feel alone and scared and confused, suddenly the change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but to stay where you are or move forward.

you get your heart broken and wonder how someone you love could do such damage to you or lay in bed and wonder why you cant meet anyone decent enough that you want to know better or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and you cant figure out why you are doing this because you know youre not a bad person.

getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic, waiting for the one you love and hoping that he will one day notice you starts to look cheap. you go through the emotions and questions over and over  and talk with your friends about the same topic because you cannot seem to make a decision.

you worry about loans, money, the future, and making a life for yourself…and while winning the race would be great right now you’d just like to be a contender!…never thought being twenty is  as lonely as being a teenager or worst….

quickie Marso 13, 2008

why does managers ask so much from their employer?!? like can i get your commitment for that when you dont hava a choice but to agree with it, and also why do they ask if you could render over time when they will just bug you about it until you say yes!!! i really dont get the thought of asking you first when you really dont have a choice!!!!!!

 sentiments of a fool!!!! i really want to quit this job!!!!

AKO/KAMI—SYA Enero 21, 2008

 it’s been a while since my last post well i’ve been really busy with work! and my shifts is kinda crazy, it starts from 10pm up to 9 am so i will arrive at home around 10:30 – 11 am leaves me with no choice but to sleep and then go to work again! im such a loser hehe..anyways this entry is not about my work but somehow related to my work.

you see i have a problem (korek ka dyan yan yung pinoproblema ko sa pex!hehe) and my problem is…..im inlove!!! my gulay!and since when love became a problem? since the start of the year hehe…start pa lang ng year my problema na ako to start here’s the story….this is suppose to be a secret but i cant seem to handle it anymore so i-share ko na baka masabi ko pa sa kanya kakahiya hahaha.. 

prob #1 trainer ko sya (used to be kasi tapos na product training ko eh! haha) nung una ko syang nakita well so-so di sya ganun ka-gwapo infact di nga sya cute eh but days passed by grabeh ngiti pa lang nya natutunaw na ako!

Prob#2 di nya ako pansin para lang akong pader na dinadaanan nya ni hindi man lang ako nililingon and ewan di naman masakit pero malungkot na di ka nya nakikita the way you do with him..

Prob#3 dahil para lang akong pader ibig sabihin ako lang ang nakakaramdam ng ganito sa kanya at ang hirap kasi umaasa ako na isang araw makikita nya rin ako at mapapansing nasa harap nya lang ako at hinihintay sya!

 at first di ko binigyan ng pansin ang nararamdaman ko thinking na this too shall pass and siguro naaaliw lang ako sa kanya coz he’s witty and smart and a bit funny pero nung walang pasabi na hindi na sya ang magiging trainer namin i was so sad and blue well alam ko one day mag-hihiwalay kami ng landas (bf ko?!? ) pero not that soon kasi ang nangyari na-assign sya sa ibang class at napalitan kami ng trainer then i realize na i like him soooo muchhhhh sobwa! but then i still have to run away from the feeling kasi ewan im so afraid with this feeling maybe because alam ko na walang mangyayari and i would end up hurting myself and losing all the pieces of me again! then one day i was infront of HR waiting for my friends bigla syang nag appear (eh sobrang miss ko na sya morning shift kasi sya )  lumapit sya sa AMIN di sa AKIN nakipag kwentuhan lng sya and sinabi nya yung reason kung for the sudden change ng trainers believe it or not para akong highschool na nakita ang crush nya sobrang kinakabahan ako ang bilis bilis ng tibok ng puso ko, to the point na di ako makahinga at promise di ko naintindihan yung sinasabi nya kasi ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko na nabibingi na ako! at the whole time na nagsasalita sya pinagmamasdan ko lang sya!i have to ask again my friend para ma-gets yung sinabi nya haha!

then last saturday nag aya syang lumabas i was so confused kung sasama ba ako o hindi before pa kasi sya nag aya pinapangarap ko na isang araw he will ask me to go out with him hava a coffee (though di ako umiinom ng kape ) so yun na nga nag aya na sya sa AMIN di ulit sa AKIN hehe sumama parin ako kasi moments parin yun kahit di exclusive sa AKIN hahaha pero di ko sinamantala yung pagka-kataon ayokong bigyan sya ng hint or whatever sa nadarama ko for the very reason na natatakot talaga ako sa nararamdaman ko so kumain kami sa G4 malyo ako sa kanya kung saan di nya nakikitang tinititigan ko sya haha lahat kinakausap sya pwera ako di ko kasi talaga alam ang gagawin ko eh di ko alam ang sasabihin ko kapag nandyan na sya i feel so helpless and weak pakiramdam ko bukas na bukas yung pagka-tao at puso ko kapag nandyan sya kaya pakiramdam ko any moment pwede nya akong masaktan maling galaw nya lang, do you understand? the feeling is just too much!!! so yun na ni hindi nga ako naka-kain kasi nga nandun sya i have to stand up once in a while and walk away from him…..so natapos ang kainan uwian na! feeling bad kasi nga di ko man lang narinig yung boses nya na ako ang kausp hehe so habang naglalakad i made my move….tinanung ko sya here it goes “hey, di ba ikaw yung nagse-set up ng sched namin?!” “ahm…hindi RC ang sine-set up ko lang yung para sa new hires!” with that look! haha alam ko naman ang sagot sa tanung ko pero wala lang gusto ko sanang itanung gusto mo ba ako?!?

before pala dumating ang sabado ni-text ko sya kasi lahat ng trainer binibigay nila yung mga mobile # nila for absences purpose…. so for a week isang maliking pagtatalo sa sarili ko kung ite-text ko ba sya o hindi at alam mo kung anu ite-text ko isang qoutation for almost 4years na pagkakaroon ng CP ni minsan di ko naisip na mahihirapan ako magpasa ng isang qoutation sa isang tao! grabeh! pero nag pasa parin ako at kahit sa text kinakabahan parin ako! tinanung nya ako xempre ang walang kupas na “who’s this?” then sinabi ko nga na ako yun then he said ah sorry! bakit di ka pa natutulog? (weee sarahp parang concern ) then sabi ko di pa ako inaantok, ang weird nagta-tagalog ka! (feeling talaga ako ) then sabi nya hahaha i bet you guys wants me to hear speak in filipino at ang sagot ko korek ka dyan! then sabi ba naman nya you should get some sleep (and i really dont know kung caring sya o ayaw na nya akong ka-text ) so what i did is said my goodnights! wala lang hahaha so after nung pagkikita nung sabado nag text ulit ako nag thanx ako kasi pinasakay nya KAMI di ulit AKO sa car nya then sabi nya no problem…. gusto ko pa sanang mag text kaya lang baka makahalata sya praning ako eh! hahaha……so paano at bakit ako nagka gusto sa kanya…..

di ko rin alam basta ang alam ko gusto ko ang amoy ng pabango nya na pakirmdam ko kahit wala sya dun naamoy ko parin sya, gusto ko ang mga mata nya mapungay lalo na pag inaalis nya yung salamin nya, gusto ko ang mga ngiti nya na tumutunaw sa puso ko (woooo!!!) gusto ko rin pag tumatawa sya pakiramdam ko di  sya marunong umiyak, gusto ko ang boses nya parang paos na di masyadow, sa tuwing inaayos nya ang buhok nya, humihina ang depensa, at gustong gusto ko ang reaction ng mukha nya sa lahat ng sinsabi KO/NAMIN sa kanya!….kung gaano ko sya ka-gusto?…

sapat na bang sabihin na kahit nahihirapan ako kapag nakikita sya gusto ko parin syang makita, ayokong lumilipas ang araw na hindi sya nakikita kungdi magkakasakit ako!  kailangan bago mag start ang shift ko at mag take ng calls makita ko muna sya or during calls dapat makita ko sya kaya most of the time di ako umuupo sa working station ko nakatayo talaga ako! kahit nangangawit ako masilip ko lang kung nandyan ba sya o wala kasi madalas pa-lakad lakad sya at madalas syang dumaan sa working stations namin once nga naghahanap ako ng support kasi may ive-verify ako pag-tayo sabay pag lingon ko nagulat ako napupo nga ulit ako eh kasi yun kinabahan nanaman ako then tinanung nya ako what? yun sa kanya ko na lang tinanung hahahaha….

ang hirap talaga ng ganito yes i’ve been inlove before but believe it or believe it di pa ako nakaramdamng ganito….im really weak, helpless, at times i cant hardly breath, when he speaks the world goes still, for a moment there’s no else alive, at times i cant move, there are times i swear i feel like i could fly for a moment in time somewhere in between the heaven and earth and i cant contain the emotions deep within, at bawat kanta na naririnig ko sya ang naiisip as in love song, rock pop lahat!and ayoko ng ganitong feeling kasi nga walang mangyayari masasayang lang ang pagmamahal na meron ako para sa kanya! bakit ba kasi kapag nakita mo na yung taong nagpapalipad sayo at nagpapatibok ng puso mo saka naman di sya ang para sayo, bakit ganun kapag handa ka na ulit saka naman hindi handa sayo ang panahon! di ba pwedeng kapag gusto mo gusto ka rin?!? bakit kailangan maging problema kung pwede namang maging solusyon….kung pwede lang lumayo sa nararamdaman ko ginawa ko na! alam ko ang pag ibig is a state of mind at kung gusto mo magagawa mo dahil sa utak mo nag mumula! pero its easier said than done!….

so there you go….. di ba para akong bata mas may mahirap pa na problema dito alam ko pero eto na lang kasi nasa isip ko lage napapalitan nya na nga si sarah eh which is not good, mortal sin yun!! pero napag isipan ko na ito eh since ayaw nyang tantanan ang puso ko at ayaw nyang umalis sa isip ko hahayaan ko na lang sya dun kumbaga sa kanta ” kaya’t ikaw ay mananatili na lang sa damdamin at aking isipan iguguhit kita sa ala-ala pagka’t tayo ay hanggang panaginip lamang!” but there are dreams that cannot be! wooo ang haba na nito too much for this….. sana this week maging maganda para sa akin sa carrer at love life

tis the season to be jolly Disyembre 31, 2007

woooo! lapit na matapos ang taon! as of this writing 9hrs to go maghihiwalay na ang taon, i wonder kung anu na ang subtitle ng asap, could it be asap 08? hehe o 2k8? whatever basta nandun si sarah! anyways. it has been a great year for me, atleast…..hehe well i had my good, bad and best times this year….i’ll start with the bad hahaha kasi nag umpisa naman talaga ang taon ko na walang sense eh

 BAD TIMES

i started the year being a bum plus the fact that i am broke! so, akala ko talaga wala nang sense ang lahat….plus di ako nakabalik sa school eh gusto ko na sana…..this year din nawalan kami ng ilaw as in total darkness late october naputulan kami until now wala pa kaming kuryente (yuck! poverty people ) pero nagawan ng paraan nagnakaw kami sa meralco wahahahaha (ang poverty talaga namin so please bear with us! ) pero di na ngayon mga 1 month kaming nag-tap ng kuryente itinigil namin kasi muntik nang magka sunog sa amin wehehehe…. as in sa loob talaga ng bahay namin pumutok yung kuryente! it was terrible! i was so nervous that i dont have the strenght to get out of our house! nasa taas lang ako, at di alam ang gagawin as in  brain not functioning!….but wait theres more not once but twice nangyari ito this time nasa office ako nung nag spark ulit yung wire this time wala na talaga kaming kuryente di na kami naka tap it’s just that umulan that day and tuklap na yung mga wire kaya nangyari yun and same reason mahirap kami di namin mapalitan ang wire na nasunog! you see i started the year broke and i will end it broke, how pathetic!……this year din nawalan ako ng work well di naman talaga sya work petiks nga lang ako but still na-terminate parin ako hahaha…..yung EP ni sarah bad trip talaga ako sa kanya di ko sya makakalimutan kahit kelan hahahaha…..di ako naka attend ng christmas party with sarah haizt masakit parin sa damdamin gang ngayon …..anu pa bang bad times ko? hmm…….wala na akong maalala hahaha memory loss sa sobrang bad nila di ko na maalala so we should move on next stop good times…

GOOD TIMES

ahahahaha wala rin akong maisip! …….. ah ok  eto i got a job, as the certified petiks sa office ng tita ko hahaha…. parang OJT ako sa kanya may allowance ako na sapat lang isa pa petiks lang naman ako eh the good thing is….. haha…… yun tambay ako sa pex at sg.com as in tambay mostly natatapos ang araw ko na nakatapat ako sa PC maghapon as in max of 12hrs infront of the computer! ang saya di ba! ang dami kong nakilala at supah updated ako! hahaha…. sa sobrang tagal ko sa PC tinanggal ako ng tita ko …….. ahm good thing din na di natuloy ang posibleng sunog sa amin (as mentioned in the 1st paragraph! ) kaya masaya parin kahit poverty people kami and by the way nakabili na si mama ng wire for the whopping price of……. sekreto para bibo pero wala parin kaming kuryente ang laki kasi ng bayarin di ko pa kayang bayaran hahaha maybe next month pero di one time big time! haha…… nakikikabit kami ulit sa kapitbahay pero di tap ang wire at lalong di nakaw! with their consent may nakakabit na extension sa kanila na nagko konek samen gets?hehehe hirap mag explain…..anu pa bang good aha! di ba natanggal ako sa previous work ko…wala lang nakahanap din naman ako ng bago though it was so hard to look for another job eh nakahanap naman ako nosebleed nga lang hahaha and FYI kung dati nosebleed lang ngayon kasama na pati utak ko dumudugo na! hahaha product training na kasi ako!………..ok enough of that the best things happens  in the most unexpected places…..

 BEST TIMES

hahahaha sa sobrang dami di ko maumpisahan!….. (echos!) this year mas nadama kong naging mas active ako in terms of being a fan kasi ikaw na tumambay sa harap ng computer for 12hrs kung wala kang makilalang mga adik sino tinutukoy ko? ikaw ate! ikaw boss! and the rest of the gang wahaahaahaha…… naalala ko nung may 1st GEB yun lost in space ako hahahaha di ko sila nakita! di kasi nag dala ng banner ewan….hahahahaha pero alam nyo wala lang i had a great year with you guys sobwa!!…. yung mga adik na yan kahit adik tried and tested ang friendship nila! as in nung mga panahon na tag ulan as in nag aalok sila ng payong! woooo umbrella ela ela ei ei ei…. seryoso i was touch to those who texted me showing their emphaty it really means a lot! kaya salamat! kayo ang nais kong pasalamatan kayo kayo kayo la la la la i love you guys!…… ……… this year nakanuod ako ng concert ni sarah at ang saya saya hahahaha kasama ko mga adik kaya mas masaya (woo plastic hahahaha ) at this year naki tour ako kay sarah as in from southmall to sta rosa, fairview to bacoor, north edsa to abs-cbn hahaha (nakalimutan ko yung ibang malls!)…… naka attend ulit ako ng bday nya! wala lang mas masaya ngayon ang bday nya unlike last year! anu pa ba! ….. hmmm ASHLO moments grabeh sana marami pa next year…… what about faith slowly gaining ground….. thanx ulit sayo ate a little enlightment helps!…….. all in all i can say that this year was still great kahit na i may sometime feel that i am the worst person,  experiencing the worst day ever in this worst world (tama ba ) …… sana maging mas maganda next year sana i can keep the best and good times at yung mga bad as much as possible di na mangyari ulit i know hardships and problems will always be there but sana somehow kayanin ko! kakayanin ko! with the help of my family ang friends and of course the one above!

how hard can it be?!? Disyembre 1, 2007

my training has already started last monday nov 26th! meaning i finished my 1st week, well….. it’s ok! hahaha nah it was a disaster!

i was hired as a customer service representative-inbound at ePLDT ventus in jupiter parlance buendia! (complete address!! ) im on training, for 3 mos. 4 weeks english training, 3 weeks product training, 3 weeks edge training, 3 weeks transit training! and what the hell are those?!? i dont know! kidding! i’ll try to explain.

1st 4 weeks will be my english training, i just finished my 1st week so i will have 3 weeks more nosebleed and brain damaging lessons! but you know what? im enjoying it! coz there’s a lot of words that i really didn’t know how to prounouced, now, well its kinda weird if you hear me talk right now in english i sound weird and maarte but theres nothing i can do coz that’s how they are pronounced!next week we’ll have our grammar lessons and i bet it will be loads and loads of infos again but then again it’s ok! so when i put an entry here again it will be better!hehe…..

product training! well by the name itself! we will be trained to know the product we will be working on soon! our accnt is a sattelite network! i’ll tell you more about it when i get there hahaha ( i hope so! if i pass my english training!)

edge training this is the part where you will study how to answer a call!!! yeah at this age i still have to learn how to answer a phone hahaha!!!! just like product i will explain more by the time i get there… if i will get there!

transit! haha this is the hands on part! i will be send in the floor to answer the actual call from the actual customer!

every training has a certain average grade that i need to meet or else im terminated!hahaha in english 80%, product 75%, edge 80% and transit is 90%…… how hard can it be?!? my trainer would usually say! but for me its as hard as not seeing sars for a week!i miss her… i didn’t get to watch this weeks epi coz my shift starts from 2pm – 10pm i hate it! but luckily next week my shift will start from 6am – 2pm! yeah i know it’s too early but it’s ok! coz i can watch the last 5 epi of PNB!!!…..going back every friday of each week i will have my written, reading and the hardest part of all impromptu exam! last week i got an average of 84% its very low compared to my batchmate but im not the lowest!haha but its too low for me its fraustrating coz i worked hard on it! its hard to speak in english specially if your not used to it! but i guess i didn’t try hard enough! i’ll just try more harder so i can be better next week…one step at a time!

so how’s my fisrt week? again it’s a disaster! coz i dont have friends! i dont even have someone to be with while eating! if it’s ok not to eat dinner i will not eat but it’s not ok! coz you can’t help it! haha….. on the other hand it’s ok to be alone sometimes! haha you know why…so i wont talk and talk! as i have told you it’s hard to express yourself specially when your not used to the language! my nose, eyes, ears and brain bleeds to death!hahaha……and i expect my next week will be a chaos but fun!!!

sarah+erik=love scheme Nobyembre 23, 2007

warning: you might find the following words,  sentences, phrases offending… this is just my sole opinion it does not reflect any of my co-fans and friends, it also does not mean that everything that you will read, is true! it’s only based on my theory and opinion…

you might be wondering whats the warning for? well it’s for the sarah and erik tandem or ASHRIK. i used to like this team up infact if piolo and sarah will not have a project together i can suit myself with sarah and erik tandem, but one day i woke up and i realized sarah and erik tandem is not a good idea after all. you wanna know why? please continue reading if not then go to hell! (echos!!! ) here it goes.

we all know that erik’s manager is boy abunda, being a fan i have noticed one thing about boy abunda, when erik meet rufa….. at first it was great that erik found someone to love, but as days passed by i realized that the lovers turn theirselves into a love scheme everyone is looking forward to… i think boy did that to prevent erik from the destructive rumors that he is gay, but at the same time have a press release stating that the rumor is not true so as the so called “love scheme” still be the talk of the town just in time for the promotions for their concert….. then in july they announced that they called it quits, just in time for the early promotion for his solo concert at the araneta, sarah did a guesting in show boy&kris where boy is the host and one of the guest is erik, i remember that boy even tease erik and sarah, being lovers someday or having a chance to have a romantic relationship someday, believe me i was so “kilig” that moment telling myself why not choknut, but now thinking about it, makes me feel that boy has plans even before erik met rufa. in august erik was one of the guest in sarah’s US concert tour, that’s when i start to feel that there is something wrong.

first boy agreed that erik will have the same billing as markB krisL and jimmyM have, knowing that erik is much of a star than this 3 guys, then i came up with the theory that maybe boy agreed in this because erik need sarah’s popularity on the US base filipinos there… because he will also have his own solo US concert tour there and it will really help if “kakapit na sya sa malakas!”

second i dont know maybe i just being “praning” or what (mas maganda nang maging praning kesa magtanga-tangahan katulad ni ruby ) but lately erik is being extra sweet extra accomodating to sarah, makes me think that boy told him to do so!

then i remember sandara parks, how she has lost her popularity as an artist and as a person because of what joseph bitangcol did to her, the “love scheme” thing did not do her any good! FYI joseph’s manager is also boy abunda…. so you see im scared that sarah will be just part of the so called “love scheme” i dont want her to end up like sandara did, sandara was used and abused by these people and who’s to blame……no one but herself!

again this is just my opinion, it doesn’t reflect any popsters, pexsters, ashlonians or any fans club! it doesn’t mean that everthing i have wrote holds any truth! this is just based on my observation! and please dont get me wrong i like erik he’s a great singer one of the best in our country it’s just that i dont want him being paired up with sarah! or you might think that im just being bitter about it because ASHLO dont have the same opportunity they have,  hell NO!!!!!………… titigan palang ni piolo at sarah CLOUD 9 na ako! i dont need the “love scheme” thing!